happy heaven day...

dinner at the beach for Arianna & Brianna's 1 year anniversary in heaven...

waiting for sunset.... 

little jayden started crying as we prayed....

happy anniversary in heaven to our little angels... xoxo

happy 1st birthday...

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i woke up this morning with 2 thoughts... it was our wedding anniversary and it was also Arianna and Brianna's 1st birthday...

 

i didn't want to get out of bed... i wanted to keep my eyes closed forever... but as i heard my alarm ring for the 5th time, i gently rolled out of bed and began waking up jazlynn and jayden to get ready for school...

 

just before we left the house, the three of us sang happy birthday to the twins.... it was nice... and i know that jazlynn and jayden miss their sisters...

 

my heart is so heavy as we celebrate this day with out them here... i'm hoping and praying that they are having so much fun playing and being the birthday girls in heaven...

 

happy heavenly 1st birthday to Arianna & Brianna... mommy loves you so very much....

 

 

 

heres a song for you girls....





 

 

 

it's almost your birthday...

"it's almost your birthday girls... time has gone by so quickly and i am amazed at how this year has been... i know that you are home in heaven and i pray everyday for you and to let you know how much i love you so much and miss you like crazy... i had imagined spending february 4, 2013 with daddy this year as we celebrate our 7-year anniversary with two little rascal girls and having to find babysitters while we try to sneak in a dinner, just the two of us... instead, we are so lucky to be celebrating your very first birthday on february 4, 2013... we will have some cake and celebrate your Happy Birthday...

but i can't help but cry as i think about the day you were born... mommy is still sad... mommy's heart hurts and i miss you both... so much...

i love you with every little bit of my broken heart...big big hugs and lots and lots of kisses from me to the both of you"

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