The theme was Noah's ark... because the animals came 2 by 2... i remember being so excited when i finally decided on a theme.... the baby registry was all set-up... the nursery had been painted... the crib was assembled... so we just were waiting on the baby shower...
i remember thinking that i would be huge by this day and that it would probably be a long day for me since i figured being around 30 weeks pregnant with the twins would be really uncomfortable... i told my friends to save the date... shane's sister had already printed the invitations... it was so cute...
but they were never sent...
i'm so sad... i was so looking forward to this day... to the shower... getting all the girls things ready for their big day... i remember spending hours reading about "raising twins"... everything they would need... double the struggles, double the stress, double the everything... including double the love and double the joy...
i wish so bad that this feeling that i'm feeling right now would just go away... i feel lost... and so sad...
why did this have to happen?... why did my 2 little babies get taken away so soon?...
have you ever had a dream just shatter right in the palm of your hands?... i feel like my dream did... and it's in a million pieces of beautiful shiny glass... on the ground... and there's nothing i can do to fix it...
today was supposed to be our baby shower...
but it's not... today is just sunday... any other sunday... and we have nothing to celebrate...
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